Horrible is the best word to describe thing's right now. All kinds of terrible. It's not that there is anything really wrong, but at the same time nothing is really right either.
It just all feels very bleak right now.
This slight interruption in my departure date to the fishing lodge has really thrown me for a loop. I'm at odds with what to do with myself pretty much around the clock. It rained the entire day today as well, so I was more or less forced indoors.
I'm down to two packs of Sapporo Ichiban noodles, three boxes of Mac & Cheese and four spicy smokie sausage type thinges. I couldn't even afford the expensive Macaroni. Had to get the cheap no name crap. :P
Anyways, gonna be tight, I still have a minimum of 3 days to go...prolly more like 4-5. Hopefully I can mooch a meal off a friend somewhere along the line.
My head is a swirl with plans for the fall and slowly but surely trying to rough out some sort of action plan from where exactly I am gonna go when I am done with the fishing gig. Things with the Torte Girl are lopsided at best. I don't even wanna go there or think about my situation with her until I am out north. Some things are best left until the time is absolutely right, and I honestly wonder now if we have gone to far to ever rekindle any kind of romance between the two of us again. Gods know I want to...but I don't know now...everything is just so...skewed.